Dilemma

'yes'...

'no...I say no'

'yes I have to'

'Ohh god, no'

Just shut up, I said 'Yes'...

'Hmm...No'

I hate this dilemma of my heart and brain

I never knew what comes next to 1...because I was always the 1st.

I always enjoyed the flavor of being the 1st and being the best.

ussh...time is just running out....time for me to be quick in decisions...

'Why do you want to take all the responsibilities again?' my brain started pondering with its thoughts...

'There is something more than just responsibility, its fun to be 1st' my heart answered

'Try being next to first', my brain suggested for the nth time now, but my heart just kept saying 'be the first.'

'Its pain'

'no, its pleasure to be 1st' dictated my heart to brain.

'You have to handle all those immature successors, just give it a thought', my brain strongly put forth its point

'You are mature enough to handle the immature mortals and whats wrong to prove it over again that you can be the best in being the 1st' my heart made its point clear...

'What if you fail, its worst than anything' brain questioned

'How can we assume things even before trying' my heart retorted.

I am just running out of time, should I or should I not....huh tough time!!!

I wish I have a life more to decide, but time waits for none and I am no exception.

'So, what have you finally decided, are you going first?' asked the supreme.

'Yes' my mouth forcefully uttered (as my brain wasn't really willing to)

'That's a great news to hear. I bless you with all the fun being the first and joy from your successors' god blessed.

I thanked him and finally I landed being the first child to my parents.

P.S: I am happy that I heard to what my heart felt and landed up as 1st child, else I would miss being the brother of a lovely sis.

P.P.S: Just a imaginary thought as to how my bro would have felt before his birth :P:P

Last Day@BBSR

సంతోషల మూట

ఆకాశంలో ఉన్న చుక్కలన్ని

గుసగుసగా చెప్పెను ముచ్చట్లన్ని

నువ్వు అక్కడ చేరిన వేళ

కనిపించెను చంద్రుడి మొములో చిరునవ్వుల కళ

క్షేమం నీవు అన్ని ఆ వెచ్చటి మంచు

చెప్పకనే చెప్పెను హత్తుకొని నా గుండె కంచు

దూరమే అని తెలుసు

కాని ఆ మాట మనస్సుకి ఎప్పుడు అలుసు

నమ్ముతాను ఉన్నావని నా వకిట్లో

సంతోషల మూట చేర్చెందుకు నా దోసిట్లో...

Random me

After a long time, wanna write something, but no topic in mind...
so any1 readin dis will surely be confused abt the content and intent of this blog.

New year is around the corner and so is the season for resolutions...
Well, till date I havent given a serious thought to any resolution...jus bcoz its difficult for me to really stick to something and follow.
A small example, on any day morning, I decide that I keep silent and don't speak much, but the very next hour, I find someone in the bus, and guru...ho jayee shuru...
when I talk of being silent, let me think about why I cannot.
whenever i keep myself silent, I m like battery katham and automatically doze off 2 sleep...the only time I keep my mouth shut is while sleeping...yes I dont really snore :P

resolution resolution...knock knock...
resolution for me is ...re- solution...
framing a few set of solutions that I plan to work on for the coming days to make my self happy...
to receive compliments from no one but my self, my true self ...
So to give it a try I wanna take a resolution the coming year which is just some 20days ahead...
I will give it a thought...

When I said thought...I always wonder why the thought process of each individual is so different and unique...
what I got to hear from junta arnd me is that it all depends on the up bringing, society where one lives, and of course genes ....
so being a part of the society, am I also influencing some one... some where?
Is it for the good or for the bad?
Am I also playing any role in some strangers life...may be yes, may be no...

Recently I got a SMS frm a friend which read something like :yes and no are 2 powerful words which needs a good balance to answer.
most of the things in life are missed by saying ...NO too early...or YES too late...
but what if people dont use these 2 words and simply whale of a time, by beating around the bush...?
when someone answers straight yes/ no its hard for people to digest it...Its true in my case too...its difficult to register a NO from the opposite party when expecting a yes...

yes again reminds me of a frnd complimenting me as triple S....
Sweet Smiling shailu ...abrreviated to SSS....howw chweeet :P.... hehehhe


I just read thru the crap that I have been typing for the past 15 mins...seems ok to post it...
so here I gooo :)

Why...?

Though my eyes prefer to go blind

Why is that some one I hate always linger in my mind?

I meet all of them daily

But none of them are loving truly

I wait for you at the doors

But as always you are away at the shores

I really need you to share all happiness

Without you here, all I can see is darkness

I want to show the world, my loved one

But all they can hear are my Silent moan

I know, Life is a school of learning

But without you it seems damn boring

my eyes search for you on each date

but they don’t find you, my bad fate

Life this way, isn’t fair

Be with me, I will win the world with glare

1st vizagtrip wid Infy!!

ఆశ్వాదించాను ప్రతి క్షణం

ఉత్కంఠ భరితం మన ప్రయాణం క్షణక్షణం....

మళ్ళీ వెళ్ళాలని ఉంది తక్షణం

మనసుకి తెలియదు ఎంత కాలం ఈ నిరీక్షణం....



Birthday cakeలు

Araku reservation shockలు

Satyam అమ్మాయిల కుల్లు jokeలు

అబ్బాయిలు పాడే Remixలు

జలపాతం లో Satyam అమ్మాయిల సవ్వాలు

అబ్బాయిల హుషారు

తెపించాయి Infy అమ్మాయిలకి బెజారు

కాని jeep ప్రయాణం ముందు ఇవ్వని బెకతారు



పాకలో భోజనాలు

Borra caves అందాలు

jeep auto ప్రయాణాలు

Campfire వెచ్చదనపు సోగసులు

కలిగించాయి మనసుకి ఆనందాలు


ఉదయం 6 కి లేవటం లేపటం

మంచులో ఊయలు ఊగటం

పోసులు ఇచ్చి photoలు దిగటం

చాపరాయి గురించి storyలు అల్లటం

ఒకరిని ఒకరు మాటలతొ దెప్పటం

hehehe బలేగా అనిపించింది ఆ క్షణం



Bus లో sleeping

ropeway లో shouting

beachroad లో shocking

greenpark లో eating

వారే వా! అనిపించెటు train లో seating...

కాని ఇవన్ని నేను ఎంతో liking...!!!



'ThanQ' తో సరిపెట్టె ఆనందం కాదు

కాని చెప్పకుండా ఉంటే మనసు ఊరుకోదు

అల్లరి తుంటరి మాటలకు

మేము చేసిన వెధవ గోలలకు

చెప్పము మీకేమి 'క్షమాపణ'...

ఎందుకంటె మీరూ ఆశ్వాదించారు

అనుకుంటాను ఆ నిమిషానా...

మళ్ళీ వెళ్ళాలని ఉంది తక్షణం

మనసుకి తెలియదు ఎంత కాలం ఈ నిరీక్షణం

VALIDITY

Everything comes into this world with a validity…

most of us might not agree upon this…but that’s true…

The magnificent creator himself has given a validity for the beautiful creation of his and named it LIFE.

but who has given a right for those fellow individuals on earth to discontinue the services and end the validity??

The suicidal case of a student for the sake of a POLITICIAN is very pathetic to accept.

How can he kill himself providing the reason of winning/losing of a political leader?

Did he ever think of his parents, his dear ones?

I felt really sad when I first saw the news about this juvenile guy.

But very next second, felt he must be suffering from some psychological disorder that he never bothered to care for his dear ones.

According to me, he achieved nothing, literally NOTHING by killing himself.

He threw his parents in a deep sorrow well. Will they ever come out of that well, even if they want to?

I would never feel pity for that educated illiterate, rather I pray god to give their family strength to withstand the loss of their dream child.